Thankful 💖

We are in the throes of fall and the Thanksgiving holiday is less than a week away. For many people, this time of year causes more reflection. For me, it’s mostly gratitude.

I’m grateful that I am able to celebrate another holiday season with my family. I’m grateful that most days I can live my life like I don’t actually have a terminal disease. I’m grateful for friends and family that support me and I’m grateful for science and scientific researchers who are working to find more treatment options for me.

I’m grateful that my oncologist is top of the game and is always a step a head of me. I appreciate that because, as you can imagine, I’m the kind of patient that comes with questions about new drugs and clinical trials.

Speaking of which, I spent all of yesterday afternoon researching clinical trials. Clinical trials.gov is a database of every clinical trial happening in the U.S. As you can imagine there are tens of thousands. Fortunately they have a decent search feature.

Even better are two trial search sites that focus on breast cancer. The Storm Riders site allows you to search for any trial related to breast cancer (any stage). It’s a fantastic resource. If you know anyone with breast cancer I hope you will share it with them.

The other site is Metastatic Trial Talk. This one is focused on stage IV, metastatic disease. In spite of searching and reading through many, many trials, I did not find any that were particularly helpful for the next treatment line. That was a little disappointing.

Last month my oncologist shared a trial with me for my next line that basically compares two different types of IV chemo. While that is fine, I’m really hoping for something that doesn’t require me to go in to the cancer center every week for an IV infusion.

I’m still taking Enhertu and the side effects have stepped up their game lately. Actually, I don’t know if they are side effects or just bad luck with something else.

I have tingling in my left arm that comes and goes. I had a Brain MRI and MRI of my cervical spine. The brain MRI was clear (yay!) and the cervical spine showed that the openings in some of my vertebrae where nerves exit are a bit too small and pinching the nerves, potentially causing the tingling.

What is causing this in my cervical vertebrae? I met with my neurologist and they are convinced that it is not a result of cancer. My oncologist thinks the same thing. What did they say? “This kind of thing can happen when you are 50+.” I don’t buy it. I think there is something going on that is causing it, likely cancer.

I also have a blood clot under my left collar bone. That could be causing the tingling. I’m on blood thinners now to prevent any new clots from popping up.

To top things off I’ve been having episodes of vertigo. My PT did the Epley maneuver and that helped initially. However, the episodes continue.

So, where does this leave me? Good question.

I will have an infusion of Enhertu on December 4. I will have a PET scan the following week followed by a telehealth appointment with my oncologist. My CA 27-29 tumor markers have been rising, so that’s not great. At that appointment we will know if the cancer is quiet or progressing. If it’s quiet, we continue on with Enhertu. If it’s progressing, we change treatment.

In between my Enhertu infusion and scan I will need to travel for work. I don’t mind traveling for work but it’s certainly not fun. It’s harder for me now than before my diagnosis so I try to go only when I really have to.

That’s my cancerland part of life. In the rest of life, I’m still working FT. I’m almost finished with a painting project, I’ve started painting with watercolor, and Glen and I went to the theater to see A Christmas Carol. The girls are off in Vienna now, exploring and having some quality sister time.

I hope that all of you have a meaningful Thanksgiving holiday, whatever that looks like for you.

Onward!