Update – Page 3 – Life As I Know It

Farewell 2023

This is likely my last post for the year, and what a year it has been!

December has been eventful, not necessarily in the way I’d hoped. I started my new treatment medication. It’s an oral medication taken twice a day (Xeloda). The initial regimen was 14 days taking meds and then 7 days off. Long story short, I had terrible side effects. I don’t recall the last time I felt that sick.

In these cases the first thing to do is to reach out to the medical team and let them know so they can help. We decided to change the schedule so I take the meds 7 days and then have 7 days off. Hopefully this will lessen the side effects. If it does not, the next option is to lower the dose.

My medical team is wonderful in many ways, I’ve mentioned this before. Most recently they agreed that it was not a problem to pause the medication until January 1 so that I can spend time over the holidays without the risk of getting really sick. I very much appreciate that!

We will travel to Wisconsin to spend time with family and we will visit a few friends. There is never enough time to see everyone.

A few days after Thanksgiving my dad passed away. His memorial service will be on December 27. We will head back home to Colorado after that. My dad wanted any remembrance of him to be in the form of donations to METAvivor (the only organization that uses 100% of money raised to support research for metastatic breast cancer). If you are so inclined, you can make a donation in his honor by going to METAvivor.org, select ‘donate’ from the upper right. When you fill out the form you can check the box to dedicate the donation to the memory of someone. If you prefer to send a check, there is an address at the bottom of the page.

Wishing you all a calm and peaceful end to 2023. I hope that in 2024 you find and make your own happiness. Be kind to one another and live life each and every day.

Onward!

In case you thought Colorado winters were cold, not on your average day!

December 2023 Update

It’s December – a month I love because of all the holiday decorations, music, and it feels like most people are in a cheerful mood.

I’ve been home from rehab a bit over a week. My pain is not too bad, minimal due to the pain meds; my right hip is still cranky and giving me a hard time. I walk with the cane around 75% of the time.

I had 2 medical appointments last week.

The neurosurgeon took my stitches out, said I’m healing really well. I need to wear the brace for another 3 weeks.

The oncologist said I can start my new treatment so I started those meds on Friday, December 1. It is an oral chemotherapy (Xeloda). I take 3 capsules in the morning and 3 in the evening after meals. So far no notable side effects, but frankly it’s probably too early to tell.

It’s been hard to arrange follow up physical therapy. I can’t drive so need someone to come to the house. My first session will be next Friday.

Maddy had her annual holiday dance recital (photo is courtesy of the dance studio’s social media). It was great to get out and see her dance. It was a stressful evening though for me and uncomfortable to sit for so long. My recovery on Saturday was rough. I’m glad I went though – she and her friends are amazing dancers and I love to watch her do what she loves.

Maddy is in the back left, although challenging to find. This is the entire dance company and students taking recreational dance classes.

I transitioned back to work last Monday. I’m working a few hours and then taking a break. It’s a desk/computer job so I can work from anywhere in the house that is most comfortable. I enjoy work because it gives me something else to think about.

I’m a “let’s get those holiday decorations up the day after Thanksgiving” kind of gal. Glen is a hard-core “no holiday decorations until 12/1.” So, given that I can’t do much, he put some decorations up yesterday. One of the best parts is our favorite coffee mugs come out.

This month I’ll continue to work and recover. Glen has a few work trips coming up so I’ll rely on Maddy and my lovely support network for any groceries and things I might need (it’s tough not to be independent). Holiday shopping online this year (bleh) will happen. I’ll try to catch up with a few MBC friends and head back to the oncologist and surgeon in a few weeks.

Get out there and support your local stores and shops (counter-act all my Amazon buying) and enjoy the holidays, whichever you celebrate.

Onward!

No place like home

There’s no place like home for the holidays 🎶.

I am very happy that I will be going home tomorrow (Wednesday 11/22) and can spend the Thanksgiving holiday with Glen, Evelyn and Maddy.

The other thing I am happy about is this morning (Tuesday) they cleared me to be “independent” which means I can get up and move about the room, use the restroom on my on and so on. No more calling the nurses for everything.

I’ll have spent a week in rehab when all is said and done. Was it a good choice to come here? Probably. The way the assessments run, the day of the week I arrived, and other factors meant that I probably was here a few more days than I needed to be but it’s fine.

I will continue to walk with the support of a cane. I have to wear a “CTO” brace. It’s a cervical brace that stabilizes my neck and connects all the way down to a belt. Not gonna lie, not very comfortable. I can take it off if I am lying down or inclined less than 45 degrees. I am not sure how long I have to wear the brace, likely up to 6 weeks post-surgery.

I don’t have much pain, partially because I am still on narcotics (oxycodone). There is minor discomfort in my upper back between my shoulder blades where they did the surgery.

The fabulous news though is that all the previous pain I had is gone so the surgery did indeed relieve the pressure on my spinal cord. I no longer have any numbness in my torso or legs.

So, hopefully this surgery and the one last month on my lower back have taken care of any pesky tumors. I just need to get my strength back up.

Next week I will meet with my oncologist and pending clearance from the surgeon and how my bloodwork looks, I may start my next line of treatment. The surgeon and oncologist will consult to determine if I’m strong enough to start the meds. I had major surgery and they want to make sure I’m strong enough to handle a new drug. The medication is an oral chemo called Xeloda (“Za-low-da”) (Capecitabine).

Overall, I’m looking forward to going home, a bit anxious about the next line of treatment, and will need to figure out a plan to return to work. My company has been absolutely fabulous. I basically called my boss the day I needed to go to the ER and told her the situation, she said “we’ve got you covered, go take care of yourself”.

It will be the four of us for the holiday. Making some food, watching some football, maybe working on a puzzle. I’ll be pushing for getting some Christmas decorations out, not sure how successful I’ll be.

I hope you all have a lovely, long weekend whatever you decide to do.

They tried to make me to go rehab and I said yes, yes, yes!

Unlike Amy Winehouse, I was more than happy to move from the hospital to a rehabilitation facility. That happened today. I’m glad to be done with IVs and continuous heart monitoring.

I was in the hospital a little over a week. Everyone there was helpful and professional. I was there long enough, and feeling well enough that they got to know me a little which was nice.

Today they officially waved goodbye. I had a transport van move me in a wheelchair to Broomfield Hospital in Broomfield, just down the road from us.

The transport van had a ramp for a wheelchair and they secured it down before the short (20 min) drive. Unfortunately, I didn’t have any decent clothes to change in to so I felt just as disheveled as I look.

The third floor is a rehabilitation facility. I landed here late afternoon. Just enough time to get some dinner and answer a huge list of questions.

Glen will bring me a bag of clothes, pjs, toiletries tonight. The goal while I’m here is to get me as independent as possible and ready to walk back in the door at home and just live life.

How long will this take? Unclear. I have decent strength, which is a plus for me. I don’t know how well I can do things so I suspect there will be an assessment and then each day we will work to get me ready to be home.

I’m looking forward to getting started.

Related to my surgery – I will go see the surgeons assistant next week or just after the holiday. She will reassess my brace and see if she can lift any of the restrictions I have for movement.

Related to my cancer – I have an appointment with my oncologist after the Thanksgiving holiday. We will look at starting a new treatment line then. The treatment is an oral chemo which can be hard on the immune system. It is a delicate balance to start a new treatment when you are trying to recover from surgery.

I have full confidence in my medical team and will go with their recommendations. I’m thankful for friends far away and also close by. For lovely gifts to pass time in the hospital and visits with good coffee to do the same.

In the meantime it’s one day at a time. Get out there and get some fresh air on my behalf. Love to all.

Onward!

View out my window from the rehab facility

More Back Surgery Needed

My lower back surgery was successful! I no longer have pain in my hip and leg. So grateful!

Unfortunately, about a week after my surgery I developed significant pain in my upper back that would migrate to my chest. It’s gotten progressively worse. I’ve been meeting and talking with both my oncologist and my surgeon over the past few weeks.

Results of an MRI from last week shows that I have tumors pressing on my T3 vertebrae which is located between my shoulder blades. Pain mystery solved!

The tumors are pressing on both sides of my spinal cord, squishing it into an hour glass shape. Not what we want. The surgeon is aiming for surgery ASAP to do the same procedure (laminectomy) on the T3. Surgery is not scheduled at this time and should happen within the next 2 weeks.

I’m comfortable with this plan and have 100% confidence in the surgeon. I am hoping for the soonest possible date for surgery!

During this time I am not receiving any treatment for my cancer, which is nerve wracking. So, the sooner we can get this done, the sooner I can start my new medication. Obviously the medication I was on stopped working so we cross off that treatment line and move to the next.

Having metastatic breast cancer (MBC) to the bones only is “good”. Much better than when visceral organs become involved (lungs, liver, brain). However, there is no good MBC. I mentioned previously some of the complications bone mets can cause, I think I left off paralysis. So, while I am confident my medical team will get me fixed up as soon and as best as possible, the reality of what I and my family are facing is daunting.

A huge thank you to friends who have provided meals, conversation, brought coffee and other gifts and especially to Amy for driving me to medical appointments in Denver when Glen can’t do it.

We can’t do this cancer thing without you and are so very grateful.

If you are feeling a little helpless and can spare a buck (or twenty) it’s not too late to donate to my fund raiser for research toward new treatments of MBC. https://donate.metavivor.org/fundraiser/4523169

And as always a few photos of the past month. Be well my friends. Onward!

Surgeon check in

I’m almost 2 weeks out from surgery. This morning Glen and I met with the surgeon. He is pleased with everything. Importantly, it appears as though this procedure has eliminated my leg and hip pain! I can start moving around a bit more, but no Cross Fit, per the surgeon. 😀 The tumors were sent off to pathology, there were no results as of this morning.

About a week ago I started to get a pain in my upper back / neck and it’s gotten progressively worse. So much so that I ended up going to the Emergency Room on the advice of my nurse navigator.

The good news is that anything life threatening was ruled out: heart is fine and there are no blood clots. Also good is that mornings are least painful and sometimes I can control it with medications (muscle relaxer and oxycodone).

It’s not clear what is causing the pain and all the medical professionals are scratching their heads a little bit. The surgeon ordered an MRI for next week and I’ll see him again in early November.

Meanwhile this weekend we had a fun weekend of mini-golf and pizza. Last weekend Maddy celebrated Homecoming. Gotta squeeze in the fun of life wherever you can.

Post-op Report

Two days ago I had back surgery, a laminectomy with tumor recession to be exact. The surgeon removed part of my L3 and L4 vertebrae to relieve pressure on my spinal cord. It looks as if there was tumor pressing on the cord. The tumor was removed, along with bone, and sent off to pathology. It will take around 2 weeks to get pathology results.

A general diagram of the procedure I had on L3 and L4.

The procedure was about 2 hours and there were no complications. My recovery was fine and I opted to stay one night in the hospital.

For two weeks I cannot bend, twist or lift anything 10 lbs or heavier. Before I was released both physical and occupational therapy came by to help me navigate stairs and getting dressed. I’m feeling confident that things will go fine, although I will need to rely on Glen and Maddy a lot.

I don’t have much pain right now, probably because I’m taking 20mg of oxycodone every 4 hours! I had a restful night at home and the cat snuggled up next to me. He missed me!

I have a post-op appointment in 2 weeks and hopefully some of my restrictions will be lifted. If I’m feeling better by next week I’ll go back to work. I work remotely and have a lot of control over my schedule so I’m not too concerned about that.

Thank you for all the messages, flowers and texts. I really felt the love and cannot express how much that meant to me. I was very nervous going into this – who wouldn’t when they are messing around near your spine! Your reaching out really helped calm my nerves so thank you for doing that!

Evelyn will come home this weekend to help out. I am looking forward to that. Maddy has homecoming this weekend and so we won’t see much of her! Life continues on!

Gorgeous orchid from my secret admirer (Nancy)

Onward! New meds and surgery

Lots going on here so I’ll try to summarize for those trying to keep up.

Surgery. I still have continual pain in my lower back, right hip and leg. It’s debilitating and very frustrating to deal with and try to control. An MRI of my lower back shows that I have tumor pushing on my spinal cord. It’s not clear if this tumor is “new” or “old”.

The surgeon (neuro-oncologist) is recommending a laminectomy and tumor “rescission”. He will go in and remove part of 2 of my vertebrae as well as any cancer tumors he sees there. He is very confident this will eliminate my pain (🤞). Note: I find surgeons to be over confident in general.

Surgery is scheduled for Wednesday October 4. I will stay one night in the hospital. I should be up and walking about the same day.

New Meds. The results of my PET scan show the cancer is still limited to my bones (no visceral organs). This is very good! It also looks as though I have been having very slow progression over the past year.

My oncologist wants to stay ahead of the cancer (me too!) and recommends switching medication. I have already stopped taking Ibrance and in late October I will switch to Xeloda (z-low-da). These oral meds are taken twice a day for two weeks and then a week off.

I had a great run with Ibrance – over 4 years and 50+ medication cycles!

I know several other women on Xeloda so there is a support network to plug in to. I’m hoping my side effects are minimal and that my cancer hates this medication!

I will keep taking Xeloda until it stops working. This is determined by doing scans and comparing them to previous scans.

Today I will see my primary care physician to have him sign off that I’m healthy enough to have surgery. Then I’ll be calling my insurance company to see where approval for the surgery is.

Other than all of this, it’s a typical fall day here in Colorado with leaves starting to turn, lots of sunshine, and a high in the mid-80s. I’m looking forward to getting my back/hip/leg in order so I can go out and walk again. Take a walk for me – short or long – and send me a photo.

Bye bye Ibrance. You served me well, I’m still disappointed that you failed me. Do better, medicine!

MBC – the “gift” that keeps on giving

Happy September friends and family.

I feel like I missed summer so I’m being intentional about eating lunch outside in the sun! I hope you are still getting outside now and again to get some fresh air and vitamin D.

This past week was a busy one medical-wise. I had my regular monthly appointments. Additionally I had an MRI on my lumbar spine region (lower back) and met with a neuro-oncologist.

My medical oncologist is lowering the dose of one of my medications (Ibrance). There are 3 dose levels. I’ve been on this highest dose for 4 years. Apparently after being on it for that long it is common for white blood cells to start to tank (neutrophils specifically). So, I will go to the next lower dosage. It should not affect the efficacy of the treatment.

It’s interesting that the default is to start patients on the highest tolerable dose of a drug and then lower the dosage when there are side effects or complications. There is a group of patient advocates that are trying to change this so doctors don’t default to the highest dose to start.

Anyway, this change should not affect my treatment. The change will happen next month.

The neuro-oncologist believes he has found the source of my nerve pain. It appears that I have tumor on both the L3 and L4 vertebrae. The tumors are on the inside of the vertebrae and pushing on the spinal cord. That is what is generating the nerve pain in my hip and leg.

His recommendation (which I will follow) is that he do surgery to remove the tumor material. It’s not scheduled yet, hopefully will happen within 2-3 weeks.

We don’t know if the tumors are new or if they are “old” and just got pushed/moved around. The first step will be to get me out of constant pain. The second will be for my oncologist to determine if the cancer has awakened or is still sleeping. I won’t have that information until early October.

With Metastatic Breast Cancer (MBC) the cancer spreads beyond the breast. I have bone only disease. This is good in that bone only disease does not kill you. However, it can mess you up royally. The cancer in my spine has now made it very difficult to walk. The current nerve pain only allows me to lay and sleep on my left side. It’s possible though that the bone disease can cause incontinence and other very unpleasant things. So, when I say “Things could be worse.” They could, indeed.

Maddy has started her junior year of HS and a new year of dance. Evelyn is moved in to her apartment and in the thick of classes as a sophomore at University of Colorado Boulder. (She is VERY excited for the football game tomorrow! Look for her on tv.) Glen finished his fly fishing trip and will be traveling for work next week.

I have work travel scheduled (which will likely be cancelled). I also am/was planning to go to a breast cancer symposium in Pittsburgh, attending as a patient advocate. We will see how all this travel shakes out with impending surgery. I don’t have a great feeling about this travel happening either.

This back surgery is a bump in the road. One thing at a time. Thanks to everyone for your support and love. Right back at ‘ cha!

We take our spine for granted! Stop doing that!

A summer of good news

I’m happy to share that my cancer seems to be quiet and stable. I’ll take this.

I had scans 2 days ago and appointments today with my oncologist and for treatment. The CT scan identified something on my sternum but it can’t distinguish if it is healed bone or new cancer. Imaging is imperfect.

I have been getting CT scans (with contrast) and a bone scan roughly every 3 months since my diagnosis. I have bone-only disease and it’s hard to get good information from these images.

My oncologist wants to switch me over to PET scans, and he wants to do the next scan in October, two months away. I think he is suspicious of the CT results. Insurance companies don’t like to pay for PET scans but the oncologist is pretty confident he can make a good argument. I’ve only had one PET scan and that was how I was diagnosed with bone metastasis.

My immune system is not great right now – my blood work came back with low neutrophils. So, I have to wait a week to restart my Ibrance. I’ll have more lab work next Wednesday and if it looks better I can restart it. If it comes back the same then he will probably lower the dosage of the medication.

I have been having nerve pain all summer. I had a kypoplasty on June 1; the pain largely continued. I had an epidural steroid injection 2 weeks ago; the pain continues. Since nothing showed up on the CT scan, we can assume it’s not new cancer so I’ll head back to the other doctor to see what we can do.

The nerve pain is from the L4/L5 and extends all the way down my leg which makes walking difficult. I’m trying to get exercise in the warm water pool of the YMCA. It’s been a frustrating summer from a physical standpoint.

In other news, Evelyn is home from Europe and Maddy finished a 2 week, 12-hour per day dance workshop at the University of Colorado. It’s nice to have them both home. Ev will move into her apartment in ~1.5 weeks. Maddy starts her junior year next week. Glen is working a lot and will take time off later this month for an annual fly fishing trip.

However you choose to finish out the summer, I hope it is exactly what you need it to be.