MBC – Page 4 – Life As I Know It

Farewell 2023

This is likely my last post for the year, and what a year it has been!

December has been eventful, not necessarily in the way I’d hoped. I started my new treatment medication. It’s an oral medication taken twice a day (Xeloda). The initial regimen was 14 days taking meds and then 7 days off. Long story short, I had terrible side effects. I don’t recall the last time I felt that sick.

In these cases the first thing to do is to reach out to the medical team and let them know so they can help. We decided to change the schedule so I take the meds 7 days and then have 7 days off. Hopefully this will lessen the side effects. If it does not, the next option is to lower the dose.

My medical team is wonderful in many ways, I’ve mentioned this before. Most recently they agreed that it was not a problem to pause the medication until January 1 so that I can spend time over the holidays without the risk of getting really sick. I very much appreciate that!

We will travel to Wisconsin to spend time with family and we will visit a few friends. There is never enough time to see everyone.

A few days after Thanksgiving my dad passed away. His memorial service will be on December 27. We will head back home to Colorado after that. My dad wanted any remembrance of him to be in the form of donations to METAvivor (the only organization that uses 100% of money raised to support research for metastatic breast cancer). If you are so inclined, you can make a donation in his honor by going to METAvivor.org, select ‘donate’ from the upper right. When you fill out the form you can check the box to dedicate the donation to the memory of someone. If you prefer to send a check, there is an address at the bottom of the page.

Wishing you all a calm and peaceful end to 2023. I hope that in 2024 you find and make your own happiness. Be kind to one another and live life each and every day.

Onward!

In case you thought Colorado winters were cold, not on your average day!

December 2023 Update

It’s December – a month I love because of all the holiday decorations, music, and it feels like most people are in a cheerful mood.

I’ve been home from rehab a bit over a week. My pain is not too bad, minimal due to the pain meds; my right hip is still cranky and giving me a hard time. I walk with the cane around 75% of the time.

I had 2 medical appointments last week.

The neurosurgeon took my stitches out, said I’m healing really well. I need to wear the brace for another 3 weeks.

The oncologist said I can start my new treatment so I started those meds on Friday, December 1. It is an oral chemotherapy (Xeloda). I take 3 capsules in the morning and 3 in the evening after meals. So far no notable side effects, but frankly it’s probably too early to tell.

It’s been hard to arrange follow up physical therapy. I can’t drive so need someone to come to the house. My first session will be next Friday.

Maddy had her annual holiday dance recital (photo is courtesy of the dance studio’s social media). It was great to get out and see her dance. It was a stressful evening though for me and uncomfortable to sit for so long. My recovery on Saturday was rough. I’m glad I went though – she and her friends are amazing dancers and I love to watch her do what she loves.

Maddy is in the back left, although challenging to find. This is the entire dance company and students taking recreational dance classes.

I transitioned back to work last Monday. I’m working a few hours and then taking a break. It’s a desk/computer job so I can work from anywhere in the house that is most comfortable. I enjoy work because it gives me something else to think about.

I’m a “let’s get those holiday decorations up the day after Thanksgiving” kind of gal. Glen is a hard-core “no holiday decorations until 12/1.” So, given that I can’t do much, he put some decorations up yesterday. One of the best parts is our favorite coffee mugs come out.

This month I’ll continue to work and recover. Glen has a few work trips coming up so I’ll rely on Maddy and my lovely support network for any groceries and things I might need (it’s tough not to be independent). Holiday shopping online this year (bleh) will happen. I’ll try to catch up with a few MBC friends and head back to the oncologist and surgeon in a few weeks.

Get out there and support your local stores and shops (counter-act all my Amazon buying) and enjoy the holidays, whichever you celebrate.

Onward!

More Back Surgery Needed

My lower back surgery was successful! I no longer have pain in my hip and leg. So grateful!

Unfortunately, about a week after my surgery I developed significant pain in my upper back that would migrate to my chest. It’s gotten progressively worse. I’ve been meeting and talking with both my oncologist and my surgeon over the past few weeks.

Results of an MRI from last week shows that I have tumors pressing on my T3 vertebrae which is located between my shoulder blades. Pain mystery solved!

The tumors are pressing on both sides of my spinal cord, squishing it into an hour glass shape. Not what we want. The surgeon is aiming for surgery ASAP to do the same procedure (laminectomy) on the T3. Surgery is not scheduled at this time and should happen within the next 2 weeks.

I’m comfortable with this plan and have 100% confidence in the surgeon. I am hoping for the soonest possible date for surgery!

During this time I am not receiving any treatment for my cancer, which is nerve wracking. So, the sooner we can get this done, the sooner I can start my new medication. Obviously the medication I was on stopped working so we cross off that treatment line and move to the next.

Having metastatic breast cancer (MBC) to the bones only is “good”. Much better than when visceral organs become involved (lungs, liver, brain). However, there is no good MBC. I mentioned previously some of the complications bone mets can cause, I think I left off paralysis. So, while I am confident my medical team will get me fixed up as soon and as best as possible, the reality of what I and my family are facing is daunting.

A huge thank you to friends who have provided meals, conversation, brought coffee and other gifts and especially to Amy for driving me to medical appointments in Denver when Glen can’t do it.

We can’t do this cancer thing without you and are so very grateful.

If you are feeling a little helpless and can spare a buck (or twenty) it’s not too late to donate to my fund raiser for research toward new treatments of MBC. https://donate.metavivor.org/fundraiser/4523169

And as always a few photos of the past month. Be well my friends. Onward!

Surgeon check in

I’m almost 2 weeks out from surgery. This morning Glen and I met with the surgeon. He is pleased with everything. Importantly, it appears as though this procedure has eliminated my leg and hip pain! I can start moving around a bit more, but no Cross Fit, per the surgeon. 😀 The tumors were sent off to pathology, there were no results as of this morning.

About a week ago I started to get a pain in my upper back / neck and it’s gotten progressively worse. So much so that I ended up going to the Emergency Room on the advice of my nurse navigator.

The good news is that anything life threatening was ruled out: heart is fine and there are no blood clots. Also good is that mornings are least painful and sometimes I can control it with medications (muscle relaxer and oxycodone).

It’s not clear what is causing the pain and all the medical professionals are scratching their heads a little bit. The surgeon ordered an MRI for next week and I’ll see him again in early November.

Meanwhile this weekend we had a fun weekend of mini-golf and pizza. Last weekend Maddy celebrated Homecoming. Gotta squeeze in the fun of life wherever you can.

Post-op Report

Two days ago I had back surgery, a laminectomy with tumor recession to be exact. The surgeon removed part of my L3 and L4 vertebrae to relieve pressure on my spinal cord. It looks as if there was tumor pressing on the cord. The tumor was removed, along with bone, and sent off to pathology. It will take around 2 weeks to get pathology results.

A general diagram of the procedure I had on L3 and L4.

The procedure was about 2 hours and there were no complications. My recovery was fine and I opted to stay one night in the hospital.

For two weeks I cannot bend, twist or lift anything 10 lbs or heavier. Before I was released both physical and occupational therapy came by to help me navigate stairs and getting dressed. I’m feeling confident that things will go fine, although I will need to rely on Glen and Maddy a lot.

I don’t have much pain right now, probably because I’m taking 20mg of oxycodone every 4 hours! I had a restful night at home and the cat snuggled up next to me. He missed me!

I have a post-op appointment in 2 weeks and hopefully some of my restrictions will be lifted. If I’m feeling better by next week I’ll go back to work. I work remotely and have a lot of control over my schedule so I’m not too concerned about that.

Thank you for all the messages, flowers and texts. I really felt the love and cannot express how much that meant to me. I was very nervous going into this – who wouldn’t when they are messing around near your spine! Your reaching out really helped calm my nerves so thank you for doing that!

Evelyn will come home this weekend to help out. I am looking forward to that. Maddy has homecoming this weekend and so we won’t see much of her! Life continues on!

Gorgeous orchid from my secret admirer (Nancy)

Onward! New meds and surgery

Lots going on here so I’ll try to summarize for those trying to keep up.

Surgery. I still have continual pain in my lower back, right hip and leg. It’s debilitating and very frustrating to deal with and try to control. An MRI of my lower back shows that I have tumor pushing on my spinal cord. It’s not clear if this tumor is “new” or “old”.

The surgeon (neuro-oncologist) is recommending a laminectomy and tumor “rescission”. He will go in and remove part of 2 of my vertebrae as well as any cancer tumors he sees there. He is very confident this will eliminate my pain (🤞). Note: I find surgeons to be over confident in general.

Surgery is scheduled for Wednesday October 4. I will stay one night in the hospital. I should be up and walking about the same day.

New Meds. The results of my PET scan show the cancer is still limited to my bones (no visceral organs). This is very good! It also looks as though I have been having very slow progression over the past year.

My oncologist wants to stay ahead of the cancer (me too!) and recommends switching medication. I have already stopped taking Ibrance and in late October I will switch to Xeloda (z-low-da). These oral meds are taken twice a day for two weeks and then a week off.

I had a great run with Ibrance – over 4 years and 50+ medication cycles!

I know several other women on Xeloda so there is a support network to plug in to. I’m hoping my side effects are minimal and that my cancer hates this medication!

I will keep taking Xeloda until it stops working. This is determined by doing scans and comparing them to previous scans.

Today I will see my primary care physician to have him sign off that I’m healthy enough to have surgery. Then I’ll be calling my insurance company to see where approval for the surgery is.

Other than all of this, it’s a typical fall day here in Colorado with leaves starting to turn, lots of sunshine, and a high in the mid-80s. I’m looking forward to getting my back/hip/leg in order so I can go out and walk again. Take a walk for me – short or long – and send me a photo.

Bye bye Ibrance. You served me well, I’m still disappointed that you failed me. Do better, medicine!

MBC – the “gift” that keeps on giving

Happy September friends and family.

I feel like I missed summer so I’m being intentional about eating lunch outside in the sun! I hope you are still getting outside now and again to get some fresh air and vitamin D.

This past week was a busy one medical-wise. I had my regular monthly appointments. Additionally I had an MRI on my lumbar spine region (lower back) and met with a neuro-oncologist.

My medical oncologist is lowering the dose of one of my medications (Ibrance). There are 3 dose levels. I’ve been on this highest dose for 4 years. Apparently after being on it for that long it is common for white blood cells to start to tank (neutrophils specifically). So, I will go to the next lower dosage. It should not affect the efficacy of the treatment.

It’s interesting that the default is to start patients on the highest tolerable dose of a drug and then lower the dosage when there are side effects or complications. There is a group of patient advocates that are trying to change this so doctors don’t default to the highest dose to start.

Anyway, this change should not affect my treatment. The change will happen next month.

The neuro-oncologist believes he has found the source of my nerve pain. It appears that I have tumor on both the L3 and L4 vertebrae. The tumors are on the inside of the vertebrae and pushing on the spinal cord. That is what is generating the nerve pain in my hip and leg.

His recommendation (which I will follow) is that he do surgery to remove the tumor material. It’s not scheduled yet, hopefully will happen within 2-3 weeks.

We don’t know if the tumors are new or if they are “old” and just got pushed/moved around. The first step will be to get me out of constant pain. The second will be for my oncologist to determine if the cancer has awakened or is still sleeping. I won’t have that information until early October.

With Metastatic Breast Cancer (MBC) the cancer spreads beyond the breast. I have bone only disease. This is good in that bone only disease does not kill you. However, it can mess you up royally. The cancer in my spine has now made it very difficult to walk. The current nerve pain only allows me to lay and sleep on my left side. It’s possible though that the bone disease can cause incontinence and other very unpleasant things. So, when I say “Things could be worse.” They could, indeed.

Maddy has started her junior year of HS and a new year of dance. Evelyn is moved in to her apartment and in the thick of classes as a sophomore at University of Colorado Boulder. (She is VERY excited for the football game tomorrow! Look for her on tv.) Glen finished his fly fishing trip and will be traveling for work next week.

I have work travel scheduled (which will likely be cancelled). I also am/was planning to go to a breast cancer symposium in Pittsburgh, attending as a patient advocate. We will see how all this travel shakes out with impending surgery. I don’t have a great feeling about this travel happening either.

This back surgery is a bump in the road. One thing at a time. Thanks to everyone for your support and love. Right back at ‘ cha!

We take our spine for granted! Stop doing that!

Non-cancer update

I am dropping a note but it’s not exactly cancer related. I’ve had pain and discomfort in my lower back and right leg since April when I had a bad fall. I’ve had 2 procedures since then to try to resolve the issue, with no luck.

I’ve been referred to a neuro-oncologist. Amazingly I was able to get an appointment for this week! So, I will go to meet with him (Dr. “Eddie” as he is referred to) and see what he has to say.

Those of you who have been dealing with chronic pain, I salute you. This is no joke, for sure.

In spite of that, I’m trying to make the best of the last days of summer. It’s been raining quite a bit here so my time sitting outside is a bit limited. Fortunately, we have big windows that look out on to the back yard filled with flowers.

In other news, Glen is wrapping up his annual fly fishing trip in southern Colorado. Evelyn is moved in to her first apartment. Maddy started her junior year and lasted 2 days before she came down with COVID. She missed the entire first full week of school, she also developed an ear infection. She is on the mend now, but it’s slow. No first day of school photos this year either. I have my regular oncology appointment next week (labs, office visit, treatment shots).

Our lovely cat, Toulouse, really needs a companion. I’m planning on visiting the local humane societies on a day when I can get my discomfort under sufficient control.

It’s hard to believe it’s almost September, I hope you are making the most of each day and your summer has been one filled with fun and making new memories.

A summer of good news

I’m happy to share that my cancer seems to be quiet and stable. I’ll take this.

I had scans 2 days ago and appointments today with my oncologist and for treatment. The CT scan identified something on my sternum but it can’t distinguish if it is healed bone or new cancer. Imaging is imperfect.

I have been getting CT scans (with contrast) and a bone scan roughly every 3 months since my diagnosis. I have bone-only disease and it’s hard to get good information from these images.

My oncologist wants to switch me over to PET scans, and he wants to do the next scan in October, two months away. I think he is suspicious of the CT results. Insurance companies don’t like to pay for PET scans but the oncologist is pretty confident he can make a good argument. I’ve only had one PET scan and that was how I was diagnosed with bone metastasis.

My immune system is not great right now – my blood work came back with low neutrophils. So, I have to wait a week to restart my Ibrance. I’ll have more lab work next Wednesday and if it looks better I can restart it. If it comes back the same then he will probably lower the dosage of the medication.

I have been having nerve pain all summer. I had a kypoplasty on June 1; the pain largely continued. I had an epidural steroid injection 2 weeks ago; the pain continues. Since nothing showed up on the CT scan, we can assume it’s not new cancer so I’ll head back to the other doctor to see what we can do.

The nerve pain is from the L4/L5 and extends all the way down my leg which makes walking difficult. I’m trying to get exercise in the warm water pool of the YMCA. It’s been a frustrating summer from a physical standpoint.

In other news, Evelyn is home from Europe and Maddy finished a 2 week, 12-hour per day dance workshop at the University of Colorado. It’s nice to have them both home. Ev will move into her apartment in ~1.5 weeks. Maddy starts her junior year next week. Glen is working a lot and will take time off later this month for an annual fly fishing trip.

However you choose to finish out the summer, I hope it is exactly what you need it to be.

Four years of MBC

In my head July 19, 2019 was the day I got the stage 4 diagnosis. Turns out it was actually July 18. No matter. The 19th was the first full day living with this reality.

It’s been four years. Probably closer to 5 given misdiagnosis.

I’m on my second line of treatment. For that I’m extremely grateful.

Is my life what I thought it would be at 54 years old? Absolutely not. Is my life good? Absolutely!

I’m a planner and have always had a Plan A, Plan B, and Plan C. Never was stage 4 cancer in the plan, but alas, here it is.

Don’t get me wrong, the whole thing sucks. There is no silver lining. There are no lessons learned. I didn’t get some grand awakening that made me appreciate my life more. Me and my family just had to pivot and find a new path forward.

I’m on my second treatment line of medication. That means that I was taking medication that stopped working and had to switch to new meds. Cancer is crafty and can figure how to outsmart the medication.

Fortunately, science is amazing and research is literally life saving.

If you have the means please consider supporting my fundraising for more research into MBC treatments. Even if I am not able to benefit, those who, unfortunately, come after me will.

https://donate.metavivor.org/fundraiser/4523169