breast cancer – Page 4 – Life As I Know It

More Back Surgery Needed

My lower back surgery was successful! I no longer have pain in my hip and leg. So grateful!

Unfortunately, about a week after my surgery I developed significant pain in my upper back that would migrate to my chest. It’s gotten progressively worse. I’ve been meeting and talking with both my oncologist and my surgeon over the past few weeks.

Results of an MRI from last week shows that I have tumors pressing on my T3 vertebrae which is located between my shoulder blades. Pain mystery solved!

The tumors are pressing on both sides of my spinal cord, squishing it into an hour glass shape. Not what we want. The surgeon is aiming for surgery ASAP to do the same procedure (laminectomy) on the T3. Surgery is not scheduled at this time and should happen within the next 2 weeks.

I’m comfortable with this plan and have 100% confidence in the surgeon. I am hoping for the soonest possible date for surgery!

During this time I am not receiving any treatment for my cancer, which is nerve wracking. So, the sooner we can get this done, the sooner I can start my new medication. Obviously the medication I was on stopped working so we cross off that treatment line and move to the next.

Having metastatic breast cancer (MBC) to the bones only is “good”. Much better than when visceral organs become involved (lungs, liver, brain). However, there is no good MBC. I mentioned previously some of the complications bone mets can cause, I think I left off paralysis. So, while I am confident my medical team will get me fixed up as soon and as best as possible, the reality of what I and my family are facing is daunting.

A huge thank you to friends who have provided meals, conversation, brought coffee and other gifts and especially to Amy for driving me to medical appointments in Denver when Glen can’t do it.

We can’t do this cancer thing without you and are so very grateful.

If you are feeling a little helpless and can spare a buck (or twenty) it’s not too late to donate to my fund raiser for research toward new treatments of MBC. https://donate.metavivor.org/fundraiser/4523169

And as always a few photos of the past month. Be well my friends. Onward!

Surgeon check in

I’m almost 2 weeks out from surgery. This morning Glen and I met with the surgeon. He is pleased with everything. Importantly, it appears as though this procedure has eliminated my leg and hip pain! I can start moving around a bit more, but no Cross Fit, per the surgeon. 😀 The tumors were sent off to pathology, there were no results as of this morning.

About a week ago I started to get a pain in my upper back / neck and it’s gotten progressively worse. So much so that I ended up going to the Emergency Room on the advice of my nurse navigator.

The good news is that anything life threatening was ruled out: heart is fine and there are no blood clots. Also good is that mornings are least painful and sometimes I can control it with medications (muscle relaxer and oxycodone).

It’s not clear what is causing the pain and all the medical professionals are scratching their heads a little bit. The surgeon ordered an MRI for next week and I’ll see him again in early November.

Meanwhile this weekend we had a fun weekend of mini-golf and pizza. Last weekend Maddy celebrated Homecoming. Gotta squeeze in the fun of life wherever you can.

Post-op Report

Two days ago I had back surgery, a laminectomy with tumor recession to be exact. The surgeon removed part of my L3 and L4 vertebrae to relieve pressure on my spinal cord. It looks as if there was tumor pressing on the cord. The tumor was removed, along with bone, and sent off to pathology. It will take around 2 weeks to get pathology results.

A general diagram of the procedure I had on L3 and L4.

The procedure was about 2 hours and there were no complications. My recovery was fine and I opted to stay one night in the hospital.

For two weeks I cannot bend, twist or lift anything 10 lbs or heavier. Before I was released both physical and occupational therapy came by to help me navigate stairs and getting dressed. I’m feeling confident that things will go fine, although I will need to rely on Glen and Maddy a lot.

I don’t have much pain right now, probably because I’m taking 20mg of oxycodone every 4 hours! I had a restful night at home and the cat snuggled up next to me. He missed me!

I have a post-op appointment in 2 weeks and hopefully some of my restrictions will be lifted. If I’m feeling better by next week I’ll go back to work. I work remotely and have a lot of control over my schedule so I’m not too concerned about that.

Thank you for all the messages, flowers and texts. I really felt the love and cannot express how much that meant to me. I was very nervous going into this – who wouldn’t when they are messing around near your spine! Your reaching out really helped calm my nerves so thank you for doing that!

Evelyn will come home this weekend to help out. I am looking forward to that. Maddy has homecoming this weekend and so we won’t see much of her! Life continues on!

Gorgeous orchid from my secret admirer (Nancy)

Onward! New meds and surgery

Lots going on here so I’ll try to summarize for those trying to keep up.

Surgery. I still have continual pain in my lower back, right hip and leg. It’s debilitating and very frustrating to deal with and try to control. An MRI of my lower back shows that I have tumor pushing on my spinal cord. It’s not clear if this tumor is “new” or “old”.

The surgeon (neuro-oncologist) is recommending a laminectomy and tumor “rescission”. He will go in and remove part of 2 of my vertebrae as well as any cancer tumors he sees there. He is very confident this will eliminate my pain (🤞). Note: I find surgeons to be over confident in general.

Surgery is scheduled for Wednesday October 4. I will stay one night in the hospital. I should be up and walking about the same day.

New Meds. The results of my PET scan show the cancer is still limited to my bones (no visceral organs). This is very good! It also looks as though I have been having very slow progression over the past year.

My oncologist wants to stay ahead of the cancer (me too!) and recommends switching medication. I have already stopped taking Ibrance and in late October I will switch to Xeloda (z-low-da). These oral meds are taken twice a day for two weeks and then a week off.

I had a great run with Ibrance – over 4 years and 50+ medication cycles!

I know several other women on Xeloda so there is a support network to plug in to. I’m hoping my side effects are minimal and that my cancer hates this medication!

I will keep taking Xeloda until it stops working. This is determined by doing scans and comparing them to previous scans.

Today I will see my primary care physician to have him sign off that I’m healthy enough to have surgery. Then I’ll be calling my insurance company to see where approval for the surgery is.

Other than all of this, it’s a typical fall day here in Colorado with leaves starting to turn, lots of sunshine, and a high in the mid-80s. I’m looking forward to getting my back/hip/leg in order so I can go out and walk again. Take a walk for me – short or long – and send me a photo.

Bye bye Ibrance. You served me well, I’m still disappointed that you failed me. Do better, medicine!

MBC – the “gift” that keeps on giving

Happy September friends and family.

I feel like I missed summer so I’m being intentional about eating lunch outside in the sun! I hope you are still getting outside now and again to get some fresh air and vitamin D.

This past week was a busy one medical-wise. I had my regular monthly appointments. Additionally I had an MRI on my lumbar spine region (lower back) and met with a neuro-oncologist.

My medical oncologist is lowering the dose of one of my medications (Ibrance). There are 3 dose levels. I’ve been on this highest dose for 4 years. Apparently after being on it for that long it is common for white blood cells to start to tank (neutrophils specifically). So, I will go to the next lower dosage. It should not affect the efficacy of the treatment.

It’s interesting that the default is to start patients on the highest tolerable dose of a drug and then lower the dosage when there are side effects or complications. There is a group of patient advocates that are trying to change this so doctors don’t default to the highest dose to start.

Anyway, this change should not affect my treatment. The change will happen next month.

The neuro-oncologist believes he has found the source of my nerve pain. It appears that I have tumor on both the L3 and L4 vertebrae. The tumors are on the inside of the vertebrae and pushing on the spinal cord. That is what is generating the nerve pain in my hip and leg.

His recommendation (which I will follow) is that he do surgery to remove the tumor material. It’s not scheduled yet, hopefully will happen within 2-3 weeks.

We don’t know if the tumors are new or if they are “old” and just got pushed/moved around. The first step will be to get me out of constant pain. The second will be for my oncologist to determine if the cancer has awakened or is still sleeping. I won’t have that information until early October.

With Metastatic Breast Cancer (MBC) the cancer spreads beyond the breast. I have bone only disease. This is good in that bone only disease does not kill you. However, it can mess you up royally. The cancer in my spine has now made it very difficult to walk. The current nerve pain only allows me to lay and sleep on my left side. It’s possible though that the bone disease can cause incontinence and other very unpleasant things. So, when I say “Things could be worse.” They could, indeed.

Maddy has started her junior year of HS and a new year of dance. Evelyn is moved in to her apartment and in the thick of classes as a sophomore at University of Colorado Boulder. (She is VERY excited for the football game tomorrow! Look for her on tv.) Glen finished his fly fishing trip and will be traveling for work next week.

I have work travel scheduled (which will likely be cancelled). I also am/was planning to go to a breast cancer symposium in Pittsburgh, attending as a patient advocate. We will see how all this travel shakes out with impending surgery. I don’t have a great feeling about this travel happening either.

This back surgery is a bump in the road. One thing at a time. Thanks to everyone for your support and love. Right back at ‘ cha!

We take our spine for granted! Stop doing that!

Non-cancer update

I am dropping a note but it’s not exactly cancer related. I’ve had pain and discomfort in my lower back and right leg since April when I had a bad fall. I’ve had 2 procedures since then to try to resolve the issue, with no luck.

I’ve been referred to a neuro-oncologist. Amazingly I was able to get an appointment for this week! So, I will go to meet with him (Dr. “Eddie” as he is referred to) and see what he has to say.

Those of you who have been dealing with chronic pain, I salute you. This is no joke, for sure.

In spite of that, I’m trying to make the best of the last days of summer. It’s been raining quite a bit here so my time sitting outside is a bit limited. Fortunately, we have big windows that look out on to the back yard filled with flowers.

In other news, Glen is wrapping up his annual fly fishing trip in southern Colorado. Evelyn is moved in to her first apartment. Maddy started her junior year and lasted 2 days before she came down with COVID. She missed the entire first full week of school, she also developed an ear infection. She is on the mend now, but it’s slow. No first day of school photos this year either. I have my regular oncology appointment next week (labs, office visit, treatment shots).

Our lovely cat, Toulouse, really needs a companion. I’m planning on visiting the local humane societies on a day when I can get my discomfort under sufficient control.

It’s hard to believe it’s almost September, I hope you are making the most of each day and your summer has been one filled with fun and making new memories.

A summer of good news

I’m happy to share that my cancer seems to be quiet and stable. I’ll take this.

I had scans 2 days ago and appointments today with my oncologist and for treatment. The CT scan identified something on my sternum but it can’t distinguish if it is healed bone or new cancer. Imaging is imperfect.

I have been getting CT scans (with contrast) and a bone scan roughly every 3 months since my diagnosis. I have bone-only disease and it’s hard to get good information from these images.

My oncologist wants to switch me over to PET scans, and he wants to do the next scan in October, two months away. I think he is suspicious of the CT results. Insurance companies don’t like to pay for PET scans but the oncologist is pretty confident he can make a good argument. I’ve only had one PET scan and that was how I was diagnosed with bone metastasis.

My immune system is not great right now – my blood work came back with low neutrophils. So, I have to wait a week to restart my Ibrance. I’ll have more lab work next Wednesday and if it looks better I can restart it. If it comes back the same then he will probably lower the dosage of the medication.

I have been having nerve pain all summer. I had a kypoplasty on June 1; the pain largely continued. I had an epidural steroid injection 2 weeks ago; the pain continues. Since nothing showed up on the CT scan, we can assume it’s not new cancer so I’ll head back to the other doctor to see what we can do.

The nerve pain is from the L4/L5 and extends all the way down my leg which makes walking difficult. I’m trying to get exercise in the warm water pool of the YMCA. It’s been a frustrating summer from a physical standpoint.

In other news, Evelyn is home from Europe and Maddy finished a 2 week, 12-hour per day dance workshop at the University of Colorado. It’s nice to have them both home. Ev will move into her apartment in ~1.5 weeks. Maddy starts her junior year next week. Glen is working a lot and will take time off later this month for an annual fly fishing trip.

However you choose to finish out the summer, I hope it is exactly what you need it to be.

Four years of MBC

In my head July 19, 2019 was the day I got the stage 4 diagnosis. Turns out it was actually July 18. No matter. The 19th was the first full day living with this reality.

It’s been four years. Probably closer to 5 given misdiagnosis.

I’m on my second line of treatment. For that I’m extremely grateful.

Is my life what I thought it would be at 54 years old? Absolutely not. Is my life good? Absolutely!

I’m a planner and have always had a Plan A, Plan B, and Plan C. Never was stage 4 cancer in the plan, but alas, here it is.

Don’t get me wrong, the whole thing sucks. There is no silver lining. There are no lessons learned. I didn’t get some grand awakening that made me appreciate my life more. Me and my family just had to pivot and find a new path forward.

I’m on my second treatment line of medication. That means that I was taking medication that stopped working and had to switch to new meds. Cancer is crafty and can figure how to outsmart the medication.

Fortunately, science is amazing and research is literally life saving.

If you have the means please consider supporting my fundraising for more research into MBC treatments. Even if I am not able to benefit, those who, unfortunately, come after me will.

https://donate.metavivor.org/fundraiser/4523169

Four years + living with metastatic breast cancer. Bleh. Let’s hope for decades more.

Summer update – status quo

Hello friends and family. Checking in with you all to share I have no big news. That is good!

I had my monthly oncology appointment and things are “fine”. I’m taking my Ibrance (CKD 4/6 inhibitor), I got my shots today (Lupron & Fulvestrant) and I’ll go back in 4 weeks. Such is the life of an MBC patient .

I’m grateful for this. So many friends and acquaintances with MBC are not in a relatively easy place. I acknowledge that life is good right now.

Life is good but not pain free. I had my back procedure on June 1 and I am still having hip and leg pain from the nerve compression by my spine. My physical therapist and acupuncturist pointed out that it will take 4-6 weeks after surgery to feel normal. So, I wait and hope that it all resolves.

My blood work – specifically tumor markers – have been rather erratic, bouncing high and low. Because of this my oncologist said he is going to focus on results from scans and take any blood work information “with a large grain of salt”. I will have scans again in August.

Scan, assess, repeat.

Late last month we were in Galveston, TX for Maddy’s national dance competition. She did amazing and we are super proud. We spent a few days in Steamboat Springs after the Fourth of July and it was very relaxing. I’m grateful for both opportunities.

I hope your summer is shaping up exactly how you’d like it to be. If you get some wanderlust, come on out to Colorado. We have space for you and lots of fun things to do in summer.

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Current meds: Ibrance (oral meds), Fulvestrant (injection), Lupron (injection), Zometa (infusion)

Back stabilization update

Well friends, modern medicine for the win again. A few days ago I had a back procedure to help stabilize the lower back (lumbar region). Part of the procedure was something that a lot of people get (not cancer specific) – a kypoplasty. It’s basically where there is a compression fracture in your disk and they go in and “decompress” the vertebrae.

I had that done on my L5. When I met with the doctor the morning of the procedure, he explained that the cancer *really* likes my lumbar spine. It had been eating away at the various vertebrae and destabilizing my back.

I do find that every 9 months or so I’ll get crazy back pain that prevents me from doing just about anything. Within a few days it typically resolves. I’m hoping this will solve that problem.

Anyway, he wanted to go in and inject cement into the spaces in my vertebrae to shore them up and give me a lot more core stability. I said “Of course! Let’s do this!” So, away I went under general sedation for about 2 hours.

This was an arthroscopic procedure. I have 6 very tiny incisions scattered across my lower back where he “fixed” the spine. I was semi-conscious for it and while there were little pain points, overall it was very easy.

My recovery has been going fine. I’m feeling quite good. No pain meds needed so that has been really nice. I’m still taking some steroids and muscle relaxers.

I’m taking very short walks on the treadmill, trying to find the balance between moving and not overdoing it.

It seems like I still have a little tingling and slight discomfort in my leg (that nerve pain is caused by the spine). I’m optimistic that it will resolve soon.

For better or worse, I have work travel next week. I cannot lift anything more than 10 pounds so I will be very creative! It turns out Glen is also traveling and our flights align so I can lean on him a bit for some help with baggage.

My regular oncology appointment is not until mid-June. I don’t expect anything other than a standard quick check to make sure my bloodwork looks fine and I can continue my medication.

Hopefully by then I’ll be walking outside. Also hopefully by then this cool, rainy weather pattern we’ve been having in Colorado will break and I can enjoy a little vitamin D!

Wherever you are, I hope your summer is off to a good start. Get outside and enjoy that sunshine and fresh air!